In just a few more days, I fly to another island to begin the transition of bringing our newest baby home. And although she does not know us yet, as she has only met us once, we are learning all about her.
Our hearts wait in anticipation…we are eager and excited, we are hopeful and blessed, we are filled with a love that is growing for her. Ben and I held her for the first time last week. We watched her smile, and coo and reach and play and chew on everything in sight. We watched her struggle and succeed. We watched her content and we watched her fuss. We watched her, and smiled and looked into her big brown eyes and smiled some more.
When it was time for us to leave that day, we were emotional. We saw her needs. Her need for love and attachment, consistency…her need for healing…. We knew it would be some time before we held her again. Eighteen days. And during those 18 days, meetings would be held, conversations would be had by caseworkers and attorneys, caregivers, doctors, therapists, family members and friends. Decisions being made every day. Airline tickets booked, plans made…preparations in our home and by all involved. All for this precious, baby girl.
I try to imagine what life will be like with her. I think of her needs, and I pray over them. Asking God for healing, and victory, and forgiveness for the one who caused her harm. I pray for love to abound in our family as we receive her and care for her and love her. Life is an amazing gift. God has given her life and as a family, we are honored to be sharing our lives with this little one.
As we prepare to receive our seventh blessing, we realize that seven does not seem like a lot of children to us. It just seems normal. When we share with others about adopting again, the response is mostly happy and congratulations are shared. And of course, we are sometimes met with speechlessness or quizzical looks… Ultimately, people are excited for us and they rejoice with us, even if they cannot imagine parenting seven children. Recently, our Pastor said, “I mean this in the best way…..you guys are crazy! Good crazy… God has given you the grace for this.” I take that as a compliment…”Good Crazy.”