Good Crazy

In just a few more days, I fly to another island to begin the transition of bringing our newest baby home. And although she does not know us yet, as she has only met us once, we are learning all about her.

Our hearts wait in anticipation…we are eager and excited, we are hopeful and blessed, we are filled with a love that is growing for her. Ben and I held her for the first time last week. We watched her smile, and coo and reach and play and chew on everything in sight. We watched her struggle and succeed. We watched her content and we watched her fuss. We watched her, and smiled and looked into her big brown eyes and smiled some more.

When it was time for us to leave that day, we were emotional. We saw her needs. Her need for love and attachment, consistency…her need for healing…. We knew it would be some time before we held her again. Eighteen days. And during those 18 days, meetings would be held, conversations would be had by caseworkers and attorneys, caregivers, doctors, therapists, family members and friends. Decisions being made every day. Airline tickets booked, plans made…preparations in our home and by all involved. All for this precious, baby girl.

I try to imagine what life will be like with her. I think of her needs, and I pray over them. Asking God for healing, and victory, and forgiveness for the one who caused her harm. I pray for love to abound in our family as we receive her and care for her and love her. Life is an amazing gift. God has given her life and as a family, we are honored to be sharing our lives with this little one.

As we prepare to receive our seventh blessing, we realize that seven does not seem like a lot of children to us. It just seems normal. When we share with others about adopting again, the response is mostly happy and congratulations are shared. And of course, we are sometimes met with speechlessness or quizzical looks… Ultimately, people are excited for us and they rejoice with us, even if they cannot imagine parenting seven children. Recently, our Pastor said, “I mean this in the best way…..you guys are crazy! Good crazy… God has given you the grace for this.” I take that as a compliment…”Good Crazy.”

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About jaw123456

I am a forty-something year old woman with a thousand interests. I am married to an incredible man who holds my heart. Living wholesome lives and training our children to lead lives that are worthy of the calling that God has for them is our hearts desire. Some of my interests include faith, family, adoption, homeschooling, whole and wholesome foods, cooking, sewing and living simply.
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10 Responses to Good Crazy

  1. shellydk says:

    You guys are amazing, Jess! That’s all I can, really.

    • jaw123456 says:

      Thanks Shelly. Really we are just normal people, loving God, loving our kids and living life… Thank you for your kind words.

  2. Autumn Laier says:

    You are such a loving woman, with so many blessings to share. It makes my heart happy to think of all that you do and share with your children. What a blessed child, your abounding love is awesome…. Best 🙂

  3. Kristen Shroy says:

    It’s simply beautiful when God has given someone a gift…and they are obedient. That’s when the joy comes…in the obedience. May you and Ben be ever blessed by the love you show to Jesus’ precious little ones. What a gift you both are to those around you and especially the amazing little people you get to call your own. I think it’s pretty awesome that this sweet little girl is number seven and seven means completion…not that you are done adding beauty to your family…but it’s neat to think that she will have completeness becoming a Wertz. I love you!

    • jaw123456 says:

      Thank you Kristen! You are so right… There is great joy and pleasure that comes with obedience and following God’s heart. Much love to you and yours!

  4. Wow, that’s exciting news!! I always thought you were the coolest, so, I think those 7 kids are so lucky to have you as a mom. And I think God made you with a giant heart capable of loving many many kids. I was blessed to have you as a teacher in 6th grade, and I love hearing that so many other kids are being blessed by knowing you too!! Thanks for loving us Jess xx

    • jaw123456 says:

      Jacqui! I loved being your teacher… You and your sisters were always a great delight to be around! I can hardly believe that my students are married and have their own families! I can’t wait to hear more about what God has in store for you, too!

  5. Kimi says:

    What an amazing, amazing family….yeah crazy good. Luv these guys!

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